Party stage,

I guess I am not feeling it anymore, like I feel lie I am to old to go out and party but I am only 17 I should be thrilled to go out and get drunk! That's what kids do right? I guess I had my party stage already I grew up to fast and know that seems like a high school thing to me not a grown up thing, is it sad I rather stay home and snap chat and watch Netflixs then get drunk? Is that normal for a teenager!? I don't know? Like I way to get dressed up and go out but I don't want to look like that, like my dad, he was a heavy drink well actually he is he is a druggie and I am terrified I am going to be just like him. The thought of acting like him scares me! I worked to out to get out of that life to turn around and become that lifestyle, the chain breaks here. So no. I am not going to get turnt up, that's not me! Well not anymore it isn't !
Xoxo
Princess   T