People now a days

Now my mother feels the need to lie to everyone about everything! She was telling everyone I didn't pass my GED! So today I went to blinn and got a copy of my trnascript and BOOM BABBAYYE I passed that! So two thumbs up for this girl! So now I come to a cross path! Collage or contuine on my road of who knows what the next day brings me. If I pick collage what classes, what going to be my major??? Will I like it? 17 in collage! Is that too young? I have no idea! I don't know what my options are. Why life gotta be complicated? I am so hopeless! What do I want to be when I grow up, is being in collage going to set me back on moving to Houston? Am I going to be in dept? Boon job? So hopeless!
Xoxo
  -Princess t

I get so worked up

My mother makes me so angry! I try not to let her stupidity get to me but got damnit! Jail? Really? I am not in any kind of trouble! Why lie about everything! Like she has to sit in her room and think mhhhh what lie should I make today? It's actually sad! I pretty sure she has a sickness! I am almost cretin of this! I can't stand her at all! We can't be in a room together for more then 10 mins with out yelling! And she told people I wanted to move back in with her! Bhahahah fat chance! I would never! And split rent you gots to be kidding me! Ha! I can't stand how she can lie about even the smallest thing! Why? Why do it? Is the truth so hard to speak? Is it that hard to say I am a terrible person I kick my daughter out forces her to have two jobs having to drop out her sophomore year? Not saying I need a pity party or anything my life is absolutely wonderful right at this moment, I lovey job where I am at! I have big plans for my future! But my mother is driving me crazy! She is telling everyone he had to make me get my Ged! No ma'am I had to make you finally go up there and Sign the damn papers because was not legally old enough! That took so much work to get her to do that! She told everyone I blew the test off and didn't take it! WOMAN! I studied my ass off! I sat in a room for four hours take that damn rest for both parts!plus it was extremely hard! I only knew freshman math and ext I was a sophomore for less then a semester! It just makes me so mad! I worked so hard to get where I am and she just lies to everyone to make it look like I am failing! It's like I will never amount to anything in her eyes! I am you daughter you first child and you treat me like shit? Why? I guess I learn one day. 

 Xoxo

   Princess t 

I am wrong

Seriously what was wrong with me?? Because I am totally over him! Like for real! But now I am on bigger venting issues! Such as moving out!? I am thinking I am totally ready but scared I am not? How do you know your ready!? Or is it just you go and hope to god you don't fall on your face? I don't know if I am ready but apart of me is screaming GO FOR IT! Should I listen to myself or listen to everyone who says I am not? So lost!!!
Xoxo
    Princess t

I knew better

Well today is Fourth of July, so happy fourth!! Well to who ever is reading this, most likely no one but any who! All day today I could help but to think of why I can't get over him! Why is it that I care so much? Why is that I fell so hard or the fact that at the drop of a hat I would do anything for him! I know I felt a contention! I know he did to! Why deny? Why can't you just tell me we are meant for it, or I am just stupid! I mean I don't think I "love" you because like I say everyday love is not real!!!!! It's not! I never been hurt by a guy I never fell for some one until you! You make everything so different! This guy I have done anything and everything for!  I mean anything he want i give! I come over and clean his house wash his dogs, I do anything he wants. All he has to do is ask! Am I ugly? What is it? What do I do wrong for you not to want to be with me?? Don't you want me in your arms at night? 'Cause I long to be in yours!! I want to be so close to you, where I skin touchs and I can feel you heart beat match mine, I want you to hold my hand again? Why can't I move on like the rest? Why can't I play you like the others!? Why can't I just shake it off like the other guys, I NEVER have feelings! I can't blame you I blame myself I knew better to play with emotions! I knew better
Xoxo
    Princess t

I mean why not?

So I am thinking to myself, Why not? I mean I have no actual friends that I can count on? Plus I need a way to vent, so here goes nothing! I have really have nothing to lose because truthfully my life is not fun or any sort of worth reading to I might as well start a blog! I N E E D some sort of way to vent about, my job, family and boys!!! Mostly boys! I have lots of boy troubles!!! Like right now! Jimmy is really hurting my feelings! I seriously thought I liked him! Then when shit went south....that stories is for later no need to vent to much a bout that. Any who shit went south and like the other boys I moved on FAST! Then chino came along and made me forget all about jimmy!!! Then I found out chino has a LIVE IN GIRLFRIEND!!! 'Da fuck! No boo white girl said nope and then now here I am, all said and confused! Feeling used yet again. Then all the boys call me a whore when I use them for a one night of good naughty fun! In my defense I only know how use because that's all I ever felt, I mean the song "Bad" is my life story 'cause I never made love  but damn can I fuck! I never been a relationship to save my life! No guy has gone out of his way to make be feel like a princess, but I do love the attention I am given by guys, the look of lust to me is better then the look of, oh well! Life of a whore! I try to find something to blame! Like daddy issues but truth is I just prefer lust of love.
           XOXO,
            Princess T.