Meh,

Meh, I am in my feeling tonight, what's new right?? I feel like one of these old drug commercials where the teens are extremely flat abd are sitting in a couch, yup! That's me! I feel like that inside! Today I talked about things I never really talk about any more. Infancy I didn't really ever like to talk about it to be truthfully! So I guess it was easy to talk about some of it, but that was just a scratch on the surface of my eating disorder. I don't think I can ever actually talk about my pass. Sometimes my eating disorder will sneak up on me, and today it has when I talked about it with my neighbor it made me think all day a bout it, like how I am always concerned with my looks, I am not to big on weight as I am in sizes! To me size five is fat but when I see other girls in size five they look beautiful and skinny but I am looking in the mirror and making eye contact with the Good Year blimb! I feel fat! I don't want to make excuses for my Beauvoir but I think it has to do with my mother and how to me food was family and family time was never good in my childhood so I don't eat it and my mother alwaysed told me how fat I was so it all plays a terrible show in a big theater that I happen to be castes for the main role yephie!
Xoxo
Princess t