I knew better

Well today is Fourth of July, so happy fourth!! Well to who ever is reading this, most likely no one but any who! All day today I could help but to think of why I can't get over him! Why is it that I care so much? Why is that I fell so hard or the fact that at the drop of a hat I would do anything for him! I know I felt a contention! I know he did to! Why deny? Why can't you just tell me we are meant for it, or I am just stupid! I mean I don't think I "love" you because like I say everyday love is not real!!!!! It's not! I never been hurt by a guy I never fell for some one until you! You make everything so different! This guy I have done anything and everything for!  I mean anything he want i give! I come over and clean his house wash his dogs, I do anything he wants. All he has to do is ask! Am I ugly? What is it? What do I do wrong for you not to want to be with me?? Don't you want me in your arms at night? 'Cause I long to be in yours!! I want to be so close to you, where I skin touchs and I can feel you heart beat match mine, I want you to hold my hand again? Why can't I move on like the rest? Why can't I play you like the others!? Why can't I just shake it off like the other guys, I NEVER have feelings! I can't blame you I blame myself I knew better to play with emotions! I knew better
Xoxo
    Princess t